Entry For A Dearest Friend...

I am always at a loss for words.I just don't know how to begin, it seems no such word that is most appropriate to express the feeling and sadness.
I was with her when she got this bad news. I was really shocked when she came in front of me and suddenly cried (out loud). I asked her WHY?, but all she did was still crying... I grabbed the phone and went away from the noise, I saw the screen displayed 'Haniz', I became so panicked, I was really hoping that the news that am gonna hear from the other end will not be as bad as it is beyond anything that I can ever expect.


I just can't concentrate myself,Haniz's voice on the phone seems so unclear to me. After few times asking for her to repeat...i finally hear...Kak Zila, tlg arrange flight balik utk Ayin, Papa dah takde... I was really in deep shock. Thousands of things flashed into my mind, be it stories about her father few days ago, until the figure of her father capturing the picture of me and her family in KLIA on our way back to Doha from our last vacation. God knows how deep does the news cut me...and what's more for her?



Knowing this situation won't allow her to make decision even for herself rationally, I consoled her and suggested that we have to start make a move to the airport. Called everybody related and prepare our self to go... Things wasn't as smooth as what we expected, due to Company Registration is currently in the renewal stage, we were having problem applying exit permit online. Various calls and effort that we have put in to make her attend her beloved father funeral, but...takdir Allah mengatasi segalanya. No choice that we have to wait until sunday.

I felt guilty somehow to Haniz for not making this up, but I have no choice that these are all beyond my expectation. How I wish I have a pair of wing to fly so that I can bring her home....



Zaireen I want u to know that.....

*i know this must be very hard for you to face, but for some reason God created this to be this way, be patient, Hope this will make us stronger.

*I know this is a very sad,there is obviously no good time or way for someone whom you care about to leave.That's why when I was with u, I never asked u to stop crying...and stop grieving of the loss, because if I were there in ur situation I might be worst than u were. Just give urself sometime and don't carried away....u have to wake up and be stronger than u were before

*Try to accept the fact that Allah loves him more than we do...Thar's why he was called to be with Him.

*When u say that you are not that strong, in my heart was saying that -Sis u are strong enough that u can make it up to here....Who says u r not???

*I was so loss of words during that time, I know there's nothing much that I can do or say to make u feel good, but i hope being around with u is the best that I can do to shoulder up your sadness.

* You have been so good, as perfect as a daughter can do. Am pretty sure that he must be very proud to have one like u, so that u can be a good example to the sisters.

*I know u are very strong,believe me ur father would be very glad to see that everything finally be so fine.....That's what he always wanted u to be since u were born into this world.

For Haniz.....(if only u read this)am so sorry for not making ur sis back on time...Thing were just beyond my control...am sorry...

For late En. Zainal...semoga Allah mencucuri rahmat ke atas roh beliau dan ditempatkan bersama sama or ang yang beriman...Ameen...Al Fatihah..