Entry For A Dearest Friend...

I am always at a loss for words.I just don't know how to begin, it seems no such word that is most appropriate to express the feeling and sadness.
I was with her when she got this bad news. I was really shocked when she came in front of me and suddenly cried (out loud). I asked her WHY?, but all she did was still crying... I grabbed the phone and went away from the noise, I saw the screen displayed 'Haniz', I became so panicked, I was really hoping that the news that am gonna hear from the other end will not be as bad as it is beyond anything that I can ever expect.


I just can't concentrate myself,Haniz's voice on the phone seems so unclear to me. After few times asking for her to repeat...i finally hear...Kak Zila, tlg arrange flight balik utk Ayin, Papa dah takde... I was really in deep shock. Thousands of things flashed into my mind, be it stories about her father few days ago, until the figure of her father capturing the picture of me and her family in KLIA on our way back to Doha from our last vacation. God knows how deep does the news cut me...and what's more for her?



Knowing this situation won't allow her to make decision even for herself rationally, I consoled her and suggested that we have to start make a move to the airport. Called everybody related and prepare our self to go... Things wasn't as smooth as what we expected, due to Company Registration is currently in the renewal stage, we were having problem applying exit permit online. Various calls and effort that we have put in to make her attend her beloved father funeral, but...takdir Allah mengatasi segalanya. No choice that we have to wait until sunday.

I felt guilty somehow to Haniz for not making this up, but I have no choice that these are all beyond my expectation. How I wish I have a pair of wing to fly so that I can bring her home....



Zaireen I want u to know that.....

*i know this must be very hard for you to face, but for some reason God created this to be this way, be patient, Hope this will make us stronger.

*I know this is a very sad,there is obviously no good time or way for someone whom you care about to leave.That's why when I was with u, I never asked u to stop crying...and stop grieving of the loss, because if I were there in ur situation I might be worst than u were. Just give urself sometime and don't carried away....u have to wake up and be stronger than u were before

*Try to accept the fact that Allah loves him more than we do...Thar's why he was called to be with Him.

*When u say that you are not that strong, in my heart was saying that -Sis u are strong enough that u can make it up to here....Who says u r not???

*I was so loss of words during that time, I know there's nothing much that I can do or say to make u feel good, but i hope being around with u is the best that I can do to shoulder up your sadness.

* You have been so good, as perfect as a daughter can do. Am pretty sure that he must be very proud to have one like u, so that u can be a good example to the sisters.

*I know u are very strong,believe me ur father would be very glad to see that everything finally be so fine.....That's what he always wanted u to be since u were born into this world.

For Haniz.....(if only u read this)am so sorry for not making ur sis back on time...Thing were just beyond my control...am sorry...

For late En. Zainal...semoga Allah mencucuri rahmat ke atas roh beliau dan ditempatkan bersama sama or ang yang beriman...Ameen...Al Fatihah..

CINTA LOKASI

Kelakar pulak tajuk entry ni, takpe la sbb what I would like to share pon mmg pasal cinta lokasi (fuh!! macam artis plak bunyinya)



Saya sangat suka bercinta di lokasi, sbbnye....

1) I tak carried away, habis je kat lokasi tu lupa kan je

2)Buat pemangkin utk g keje or contribute the commitment

3)Selalunya cinta lokasi ni terjadi tanpa disedari oleh pihak sana, so u can observe him as natural as he can be (takde nak fake2...sayang2!! -eee nyampah plak)

4)tak involve jiwa raga sangat la - in a way that terima dia seadanya - kalau dah kawen ke, x kawen lg ke... x kesah jeee



sekarang ni saya tgh dilamun cinta (cinta lokasi) iaitu dengan salah seorang mamat in my team yg dr UK (seconded ke Doha). Nama dia tut..Tim..(mmg nama sebenar)....(nasib baik kat company aku x de org melayu...kecuali cik senah- diam Senah!!!). Selalunya cinta lokasi ni akan hadir tanpa di undang, bak kata orang kampung saya...inpromptu la. He's sitting next to me in the office, nak kata hensem tu tak de la macam Brad Pitt ke, cuma saya agak terpesona dgn cara dia, in whatever way la. After about two weeks working together, baru la saya perasan yang -ish mamat ni best la!!

Sejak menyedari hal itu, saya mula rasa gabra bila ade discussion especially between saya ngan dia je....hehehe (mcm gatal plak bunyi nye-sabar je la)

Being involved dgn diorang ni buat kita rasa contribution kita tu dihargai, maunya tidak hari-hari mesti cakap "Ok Thank u Rozila, You're the star!" "You're the legend".. Mula2 dapat compliment tu saya agak terharu la, tp bila dah hari2 dapat saya nak je tanya diorang balik.... "R u serious?'' heheehe (demand la plak)

Ahad ni cinta lokasi saya dah nak balik UK balik dah....huhuhu, apart from sharing a very great experience with them, i enjoyed my time with the team.
As a final request Tim asked me if i can work last friday, I really have no choice since I'm the only Doha Office representative yg akan absorb all the design work after they leave, so no excuse kena la keje. Was so impressed bila Tim prepared me a cup of coffee that morning (sbb tea boy x keje). Frankly, I just dont really care how does it taste, yang penting.....Tim buat .....so pekat ke cair ke....i swallowed it all.

On the very same day kitorang buat makan2 kat rumah, earlier plan nak buat laksam and pulut kuning as a main dish, ntah mcmana di cancel sbb batter for laksam keep giving me inevitable problem, kejap cair, kejap keras....so to save my headache i pon changed the menu to nasi kerabu. I can feel tht it was cincai gila....so simple with only one lauk prepared. Nasib baik pulut kuning went smooth je, so the lacking of completeness of nasi kerabu x la nampak obvious (i hope).

Who were invited??? Macam biasa la Ssamad and the wife, kwn2 Senah and Kak Wa.... ade la less than 20 pax.Since i need to work....i joined the a bit later around 4pm. Later that night we went to embassy event...acara yang dinanti2 kan...Annual General Meeting...sbb nak mkn lagi....

The whole day perut bloated dengan makanan.....burpppp kenyang!!

UPDATE

Lama betul x update blog, boleh di katakan sejak pindah ni la...sebab???
Sebab saya sangat la busy, as always la kalau dah pindah tempat baru sure la nak unpack meng'unpack' barang and dapat kan keperluan mana2 yang patut. Bertambah la lama benda ni for me sebab saya ni seorang yang pemalas...hehehe

Furnitures kat rumah dulu pon dah terjual walaupun dgn harga yg sgt la murah.. No choice.. :-(
Yang best tu since rumah baru ni ade gym and swimming pool, we decide to sell off our treadmill yang dulu pon mmg sgt la jarang digunakan, kira lagi kerap buat sangkut tuala la dari ianya serve it real purpose.. treadmill has a very good demand, when we decided to sell off, i post the ads kat Qatarliving, after a few calls je dah terjual, tp kadang2 tu sampai skrg pon ade lagi yang dok call tanya...Yang lagi best nya...Gym and swimming pool kat temapat baru ni, sekali pon tak masuk jenguk hahaha...dah dijangka la tu

Rumah baru ni kira OK la...yang penting best dari rumah lama.
2nd day masuk umah baru, we all masak laksa. Ajak la 2-3 org tetamu yang dekat2 je..hehehe (macam la ade ramai sgt yang nak di ajak pon) ...tapi yang sorang tetamu tu (Samad - Bukan nama sebenar) mmg sgt la menjadi pengunjung setia umah kitorang,pada en samad, jangan kecik ati eh?? Kitorang pon suka en samad selalu datang...sbb bertambah selera kitorang makan dgn En Samad...hahahaha

Apart from that, I have been transfered to the Old Office to join the desing team from UK. Am quite happy sebab I'm back to use MX and i really hope I can improve much, cuma yang tak best office sekarang ni tak de kawan sangat la, lunch pon selalu dok join my team mate dr UK tu, tp naik segan plak sebab asyik2 diorang je dok bayar my lunch...
Buat masa ni plak, Zaireen gi umrah, last Wed, Kak Wa,Bad dgn I g hantar dia naik bas dekat Al Bayyan. Windu plak kat si Senah tu... Rasa mcm sunyi plak dia tak de. 11 April ni baru dia balik...Semoga dapat menjalan kan ibadah dengan sempurna.

Kak Wa plak husband dia yang datang bercuti hari tu dah balik dah... So this weekend tak de la aktiviti menarik sgt, petang td g shopping grocerries, end up mlm ni kitorang masak nasi impit, kuah kacang and rendang daging.... mmmm sedap nyaaa. Tp dinner tadi tetap makan kat Restoran Minang kat Doha, sbb Bad dtg umah kitorang datang ajak makan luar, and by the time all those dishes tu tak masak lagi.. Lepas balik tu baru la kitorang berhempas pulas sambung balik.
Itu je la so far update yang sekian lama tak update nye... Till then!!!

I like to MOVE it MOVE it.....

We are moving to a new house,..again??? well actually we moved whenever every season change hahaaha.. Prior to our contact in the current house end, we begged Afatb (rent collecter of the current house) to release us early. For some reason la kitorang pindah ni

1. Because we r expanding….no…no…not in terms of size, neither me nor my flat mate, but we are increasing in number….no….we r not pregnant nor expecting…but we have new member. We are 3 now
2. Dah boring kat tempat lama, dulu we moved there dulu pon sbb wanna enjoy the Malaysian neighbourhood. After every each of them decided to move to other place, we were left alone. And now we r enjoying the multi nation punya neighbourhood plak….i guess cukup la dengan comp yang multi nation hehe
3. Sebab the rental has dropped down, imagine la dulu rumah yg kat Bank Street tu we paid 10K for only two rooms, and now we can get only 11K for 3 rooms. So kira worth it la jugak, otherwise the same house dulu would cost us 13K, so sian gak la kat sape2 yg dah bye sewa sampai 2 thn sekali gus tu ( Yang tau, tau )
4. We just wanna have the proper house, rumah yg lama tu doesn’t allow us to have any guest, we have no common area in that place. Lagipon segan jugak la dok asyik kena ajak makan sana sini, org nak buat lawatan balas tak boleh… so lepas ni boleh la buat makan2 kat rumah kitorang plak (kot)… pot luck ke…hehehe (tetap kan??)
5. Sebab the season has changed…hehehe…I did mentioned up there that for every season changed, we must have moved.

Tu la serba sedikit pasal kitorang pindah ni, but the hassle that we went through to get the house ni tuhan je la yang tau….. Susah tok sah ckp la… hampir2 nak give up! Tapi apa2 pon, its not the end of the world.. we finally made it.

A Year Ago...

Today remarks my 1st anniversary residing in Doha. I can still recall my first impression here after Ahmad (the office driver) and Zaireen fetched me from airport. It was a mixed up feeling. Nak kata homesick sangat pon tak jugak, nak kata tak homesick langsung pon....errmmm macam tak jugak..hehehe (whom am i kidding).May be due to the experienced of being away in Dubai few months prior to joining the current company, plus this offer was much more organised as compared to my earlier offer that I had in Dubai. Just imagine I got my travel ticket on the day that I should have departed.....What a mess!!

My departure to Doha was a bit calm, it was Thursday night if I'm not mistaken. kat KLIA pon x busy sgt, everything went quite smooth. Travelling alone..but not for the 1st time, I have transited in Doha twice on my to and from Dubai before. Slept pretty sound in the flight, i guess i was too tired. Was waken up once for the meal and I just ignored my second meal.
Upon the arrival, we went to collect my freight that i have sent earlier from Qatar Airways Cargo Office. After that I was driven to company's apartment in Bin Omran. I was placed there for the 1st few weeks.

My flatmate that time was Sherryl and Ami. They were both secondment from Hyder Manila Office. Sherryl was very chatty that made me feel easily adjusted to her, while Ami was not around the moment I reached there. After a little bit of washed up, Zaireen and i went to City Centre. We took late breakfast and get few things from C4, came back to my flat to get few pieces of clothes,the we both went back to Zaireen's place.On our way, we stopped by in Qtel office to get a sim card.

I still remember, as we reached Zaireen's place, her flatmate Lam cooked fried beehoon. One Singaporean lady (Lam's guest) was around chit chating with her.I really can't recall what was happening that night, but for sure I slept so well. It took me a while to adjust myself with local time. I was too depending to Zaireen on my first few months here. Sian dia... But Thanks a lot to u nyah....I owe u loads!! Tuhan je yg akan membalas jasa baik u!

The very next day I went back to my flat and Sunday was my 1st day reporting to Hyder Office. After a short briefing by HR staff, I was brought by Simon Poh (my line manager) to site office.
Untill now i have been placed there and sometime back to work in the main office when i have to....So itu la serba sedikit how the story goes...

Now it has been a year I'm here....there's up and down, high and low.....it will just happen...no matter where u are. One thing for sure, I hope each day will bring out the best in me to be a better person. Berapa lama nak stay sini??? Well i keep asking myself the same question also...but until now i still haven't figure out the answer.Life is measured by our ability to our own enviroment, may be when there's something in life that i think it has already been accomplished, that will be the most comfortable time for me to move to the next step....
Life is about planning. We plan our work and then we work our plan... Wish me the best of luck in life!

We are missing you HOLGER....

Last friday Holger went back to Dublin office as he has ended his period of secondment in Doha. Been working directly with him since last Aug 08. Since we have no P.M at the moment, I have to play a role to organize something for Holger in a way to say Thank You, further more our team has been loaned to few other project untill we recieve the next traffic report, thus we are everywhere now...some in the main office and some in the site office. So as a get together before he leave, we went for bowling last tuesday and on his last working day we had a sending off party for him in Chilis Restaurant near Ramada.

Knowing Holger as a very efficient and organize senior, it was kind of pleasure working with him

wonder what was happening to Alfon..his eyes upside down, by right we just play bowling, we didnt drink anything except water haha

Angelo, Anna, me, Richard and Holger at Bowling City Centre

Holger Farewell Dinner

Holger with his camel souvenier from me,Anna and Angelo

BYE HOLGER....THINK OF US WITH LOVE!

hope to see u again in Germany probably hehe

Another week gone...none the wiser....

Pejam celik pejam celik we are entering the third month of this year, cepat betul rasa. For the past two weeks I was very busy with work even tho my current project on hold due to pending next stage of traffic report from other consultant. At the moment I am seconded to the other project- still the same development but different subhead.

Best jugak, back to what I was doing before in Malaysia. Talking about work, I was really shock with some breaking news and restructuring of the organization chart.End of last week I received an email from the Project Director saying that our Project Manager being ceased form the company. We were really shocked with the news, the termination was effected immediately. What he was doing that he deserved this kind of treatment?? My PM is a very nice man, he will always return ur email just to wish "Thank U" whenever we deliver work to him.... None of my peer has done this before..It doesn't cost much but, trust me it somehow encourage u in some way.

We were really in puzzle to receive this shocking news.. but none of us dare to ask anybody who we think might know the reason why. Remembering his kindness, sometime I almost shed my tears, trying to fit in his shoe... if it is happening to me...I don't think I can cope with it. This morning one Thank U card has been circulating around the office to bid him farewell. I don't know how he handle this situation, but if its fine for him we really looking forward to see him or at least have lunch or dinner together.

I wrote to him - Paul, this goodbye bring wishes that u will find a warm welcome wherever u go and great success in whatever u do, remember that the strongest people are not those who win,but those who stand up back when they fall. I also addressed that it was such a pleasure working with him.

Most of the wishes from our colleagues really touches my heart. I pity him that he has to go through this kind of situation. But i hope that he know that we really meant every words that we wrote there

I hope he's strong to face this. Paul, hopefully the reading club will make it to the premier league again, as champion will always come back stronger. ALL THE BEST!!

we will surely miss u!