Saturday, May 31, 2008

I like this song.....























Daku Terasa Ingin Membawa
Cinta Yang Terlara Ke Titik Mula
Kembali Mencuba Untuk Kali Kedua
Menggilapkan Gerhana Jiwa
Pernah Ku Terasa Ingin Merayu
Pada Kasih Dulu Pulang Padaku
Lupakan Dosaku Putihkan Kelabu
Tenangkan Amarahmu
Namun…
Bisakah Yang Terpadam Dinyala
Bisakah Yang Terhina Dicinta
Walau Ku Himpunkan Sesalku
Bisakah Terbuka Kalbu
Naluri Meminta Kuungkap Kata
Seindah Bahasa Janjikan Setia
Akan Bersemilah Cinta Dihatinya
Percaya Ku Semula
Namun…
Bisakah Yang Benci Disayangi
Bisakah Yang Dusta Dimaafi
Walauku Himpunkan Sesalku
Bisakah Terbuka Kalbu
Bila Senduku Berlinang Sayu
Dalam Rindu Ku Tertanya
Bisakah Yang Benci Disayangi
Bisakah Hatiku Difahami
Walauku Himpunkan Sesalku
Bisakah Terbuka Kalbu

How God Sent Me Here?? (part 1)


Hi....

It's been a while since my last post....Tu la pasal..I'm just too lazy
but since i'm so free now...so bored...so lonely so i decided to update my blog.Sedih plak rasa dok sorang ni. I keep recall almost everything happened in my life.
Not to go too far but just aittle bit flash back, what makes me here?
Why i decided to come?? That's what we call life....


I was with SMHB dulu....very happy...very contented with my career life..i should say that kat company dulu i'm quite satisfied with my achievement and exposure. The way my boss treated me... Opprtunity given was ok..People so recognised my contribution since i'm the one who preoared the footprint for them in project....i should say they are quite happy with me and i'm quite happy with them..But when we talk about my pay....i think it just a bread and butter... nak mewah rasanya mcm tak la.. I tried my luck somewhere else in Malaysia, buta they can offer me just a few hundred diff in pay, workwise tak tau lagi, buatnya kena keje sampai pagi masak la. So I decided to stay, be loyal employee....


Pejam celik, pejam celik it's been 6 years I'm in SMHB, up to one point i just feel so stagnant,rasa mcm nak something fo a change, that time ade few ppl dah make a move to new opening...Middle East... At first i was just observe them....i know my parent wouldn't allow me to....Nak pegi Pulau Perhentian pon kena discuss as tho i'm still in high school.

The first time i voiced this out, ayah was like...WHY??
I said i need new challange...i wanna gain wht they gained...Ayah said "I can give you the money...U tell me how much u need?".....so understood la..no chance...wht to do??


But, when close people around me started to move....i just cant hold myself...why not me??
My parents is 2nd problem....i need to find me a chance 1st....the rest my sister said she will take care of that, yesss... i trust she can handle that. Since my late bro is no more around she has to play his role (take over)


So not knowing that how hard it would be...i tried with local company that has done attachement with my company before, i succeed. I was offered a post in Dubai.
Before i sign the offer letter I called ayah again...Just to get his formal approval. I don't feel relieve without doing that. He said ok....If u really decide then go ahead..,They finally approved me without any syarat.


So bermula la preparation let go my car, surrender my room and other necessary preparations. I can still recall masa the day i got my offer two of my close friend nangis...
Huhuhu sedih gak...I pon sedih gak...Really cant stop my tears...Ery and Cik Dal...
I remembered I was at stall nasi lemak kat Desa Pandan, Ery called..I told her somebody wanted to order Tupperware,tiba2 from the other end she said this while crying..."Lps ni dah takde dah org nak amik order utk aku....aku happy mu dpt offer tu...tp aku nak mu stay"...I pon burst into tears la jgk masa tu...i know how she felt, been knowing her for such a long time..she shared almost everything with me..we went through good and bad time together. Untill now...To Ery, where ever i go...U r still with me


After that, on the very same day, I promised Cik Dal to have dinner together kat Wong Solo ( her favourite Nasi Padang) After we placed an order she told me that she called Wa, she told Azua that she's happy for me that I managed to get that offer...but she's losing a friend...and suddenly she cried....Ohhh Cik Dal..not again..rasa mcm air mata murah pulak hari tu...Instead of Cik Dal, I feel the same way also. Eventhough byk benda i don't agree with Cik Dal but still we r best buddy... That what makes us complete... To Cik Dal...our friendship remains and never will end


Few days after that is Ramadhan, to cut short Raya... so enjoyed this moment very2 much since lps ni ntah bila boleh balik... I told my parent that they do not need to send me in KL, since the day i depart to Dubai is not far away from the day I went off from KB, My mother mcm x brp agree...i know deep inside she want to accompany me at least sampai KLIA, but ayah seems to be a decision master terpaksa she bear with it..

I still remember ayah pesan on the way to airport lps raya dulu
he said eventho dia tak hantar but he still pray from here that everything will be fine..He said he knows i can handle that and dont forget wherever you are...jgn tinggal sembahyang..

Ok ayah.....i try my best and for sure i should.
So on the flight to KL that day..everything seems so touching.. i remembered pesan ayah...how cik(my mother) cried when i hugged her and my little niece (dedek) wanted to follow me along. I dont care what ppl said...i just let my tears fall, sure diorang ckp jiwag sunggoh minah ni...nak balik raya pon nangis mcm tu skali...Eh kau peduli apa?? Aku bkn nak balik KL je...i still have long way to go la!! and i wont see them anymore after this Huhuhuhu...


Tp nak dijadikan cerita they came to KL jugak exactly on the same day I departed to Dubai...So they sent me to the airport as well. Ayah seems so cool...that's the way he is all the time. Cik pon...but whenever i passed Immigration gate, i saw her crying...See...that's why la i tak nak diorang hantar... i feel sad also..so lps naik sky train and sampai to the satelite terminal i gave cik a call to convice her that i'm ok...x worry too much...I make sure that my voice is strong enough to make her feel i'm ok eventho dalam hati mcm nak meraung......waaaaa!!!