Simon Oh Simon...

This was happened during one of the day i was on medical leave....Simon is leaving Hyder.


Simon is my line manager, in fact he was the one who interviewed me before i was accepted to Hyder Doha. Having the same knowledge (he is more of course) in MX, he has a trust in me. At first...i wasn't really comfortable with him. He's kind of people tht always potrait himself as a boss, not like any other manager, they work as a team..may that the culture of Asian...well not to say so....My previous Mr Yap tak pon mcm tu...hhmmm whatever...every people has their own style. But Simon has taught me so much within so limited time, he told me tht he didnt feel this chalengging enough for him, may be its a bit bored since heh as a very wide experience on highways....so he wanna explore more to pursue his career goal...anyway Simon Poh good luck and all the best to u....sorry for calling u Simba (i hope u won't read my blog ever!!!!) Kalau tak i will be dead meat...Bye Simon....All the best!!

Me and Simon in one of the team party at Movenpick

Hmmm...does he looks like Simba anyway?

Bye Simon....Think of us with LOVE

I was quite fortunate to be able to see Simon in embassy for Merdeka celebration together with 1st terawikh (of course Simon not included in terawikh). I was so sorry tht was not in his previous farewell lunch tht was held in office. Simon said shud be fine,he knew i was not well. Simon told me he will be moving to Dubai..told him i hope u r not joinning the company that i left, he said no the new company tht he will be joinning is better for him and may be he will get a better post tht what he's having currently. i knew about it...i've been there with my heart out in my hand...U can never enjoy ur life if ur work is not compatible with u. But at least Simon had given himself a chence for almost a year. Apart from tht, Malaysian in Hyder Doha getting less and less. Now only left Zaireen, Vincent and Me. Well..thts wht we call life...No one has a string attached!

U don't know what you've got till its gone

Hey...here we go again...

i know i promised to update my blog everyday ever since my 27th days to go countdown, but it was really unexpected...i felt sick....huhuhhuh. Sbb tu la org ckp appreciate la masa kita sihat sblm kta sakit. I admited tht i jarang sakit...very rare.... Alhamdulillah, but this time was so unbearable..It started like this....

as i was working in the office suddenly i felt lower back aching...told my fren but they just took it for granted since i wasn't screaming in pain...coming back home i apply some ointment to make it relief...but it didn't help much...my body was full of gas....wasn't unable to take food...and wasn't able to go to toilet. I have been thinking....wht have i done wrong to myself?? salah makan ke??? So i end up dgn tak pegi keje...the next morning i pay a visit to the hospital. The pain become worst after i started vomit out every food intake....sigh...weather was so unpleasant...Ramdhan is coming soon...my parents are far apart...to let them know this is huge mistake....esp my mother..i know she will call me every 10 minutes just to get to know the latest condition eventho there's nothing in between the time...the next day i was so miserable...no choice we have to wake our neighbours up to send me to the hospital...Pity them...dah la the husband will working the next morning....and too bad also they can just managed to sleep only few hours since they have to wake up again for sahur at 3.00 am......Sorry Zul and Humaira...i really have no choice



In Doha Clinic Hospital tht night i was reffered to emergency unit, they diagnosed ma and i had abdominal x ray....upper and lower back...the doctor said there's nothing irregular...even the distribution of gas also seems to be normal?? Then wht is the hell i'm suffering??? Oh god.....masa ni la there were thousands of questions pop into my mind...


-should i resign after this (its always ggod to have ur parents around whenever u r sick)

-was it something bad tht i'm gonna discover through time?

-can i trust the doctor here? (not because of their qualification but they might wrongly interprate wht i have told them)


-how can i survive the balik raya journey? it's an 8 hours flight back home



i couldnt sleep for few nights...been crying alone on bed at night...the excitement of balik raya was canceled of by this pain.

Now i'm still on medication, life now is reall depending on the medicine,once u missed them, only god know how will u suffer. Anyway I will bring back all the files and x rays film to get 2nd opinion from the doctor in Malaysia.....tht will be another 6 day to go...or shud i say 5 je sbb skrg ni pon dah dekat pkl 11...so kita bundarkan je la.Whatever it is....I'm still happy and looking fwd to go back...MALAYSIA!!!! HERE I COME!!!!

So all and all it's been 5 times my visit to the same hospital with 3days of medical leave issued to me..and the amount of claim for the medicine close or maore than QR1000.00...Huh!! but i can't still figure out wht was the caused of the pain.....Anyway thanx to Dr Nabil Fadhel Suleiman for keep bugging into u...

Bestnyeee....

Start from now on...I promise my self to update the blog everyday...give a glance kat countdown clock kat sblh tu....from this point of time I still have another 27 days to go.....so this is how I channel out my happines. Sapa la tak happy, balik raya to see all the family members....frens... and sedara mare.

For me this time is the balik raya journey yg paling jauh i have ever experience....How sweet!!
Why not??? I keep collecting presents for family and frens bit by bit since last few months...and tell you all the truth......i started my countdown since last end of May ahaksss...ticket flight pon beli about tht time....ntah ade lg ke tak dalam bag tu.....kalau takde mau meraung waaaa!!!!

Called my mother yesterday to tell her i have less than a month to go, I'm sure she will start her own coundown too....

Skrg ni rasa macam nakkkk je letak lagu raya kat my blog ni, tp risau pulak kena gelak kat budak2...maklum la over excited sgt..

But anyhow Ramadhan is the best opportunity that Allah has grant us to find His blessing...
I hope this coming Ramadhan will be more meaningful to me in worship to Allah by any means...InsyaAllah....ameen

L.O.V.E

If love fails set urself free, let ur heart spread it wings and fly again. Remember you may find love and lose it,but remember when love dies, u never have to die with it...

The strongest people are not those who win, but those who stand up back when they fall..


Somehow along the course of life..u learn about urself and realize that thing should never be regret....only lifelong appreciation of the choices u have made.

A true friend understands when u say

i forgot and waits forever when u say just a minutes...

stays when u say 'leave me alone'

open the door even before u knocked the door and say 'can I come in?'

Loving is....

not how u forget...but how u forgive....

not how u listen.... but how u understand...

not what u see ...but how u feel it...

and

not how u let go....but how u hold on ....

in love, very rarely do we win, but when love is true even u lose, u still win just for having the tingle of loving someone more than u love urself...

it's best to wait for the one u want rather than settle to the one tht is available

best to wait for the one that u loverather than the one that's around

best to wait for the right one because

'life is just too short to just waste on just somneone'

if u really love someone, never let go...

dont believe tht letting go means that u love best

instead fight for ur love

'that's what true love is...'

I like this song.....

Daku Terasa Ingin Membawa

Cinta Yang Terlara Ke Titik Mula

Kembali Mencuba Untuk Kali Kedua

Menggilapkan Gerhana Jiwa
Pernah Ku Terasa Ingin Merayu

Pada Kasih Dulu Pulang Padaku

Lupakan Dosaku Putihkan Kelabu

Tenangkan Amarahmu

Namun…
Bisakah Yang Terpadam Dinyala

Bisakah Yang Terhina Dicinta

Walau Ku Himpunkan Sesalku

Bisakah Terbuka Kalbu
Naluri Meminta Kuungkap Kata
Seindah Bahasa Janjikan Setia
Akan Bersemilah Cinta Dihatinya

Percaya Ku Semula

Namun…
Bisakah Yang Benci Disayangi

Bisakah Yang Dusta Dimaafi

Walauku Himpunkan Sesalku

Bisakah Terbuka Kalbu
Bila Senduku Berlinang Sayu

Dalam Rindu Ku Tertanya
Bisakah Yang Benci Disayangi

Bisakah Hatiku Difahami

Walauku Himpunkan Sesalku

Bisakah Terbuka Kalbu

How God Sent Me Here?? (part 1)

Hi....

It's been a while since my last post....Tu la pasal..I'm just too lazy

but since i'm so free now...so bored...so lonely so i decided to update my blog.Sedih plak rasa dok sorang ni. I keep recall almost everything happened in my life.

Not to go too far but just aittle bit flash back, what makes me here?

Why i decided to come?? That's what we call life....

I was with SMHB dulu....very happy...very contented with my career life..i should say that kat company dulu i'm quite satisfied with my achievement and exposure. The way my boss treated me... Opprtunity given was ok..People so recognised my contribution since i'm the one who preoared the footprint for them in project....i should say they are quite happy with me and i'm quite happy with them..But when we talk about my pay....i think it just a bread and butter... nak mewah rasanya mcm tak la.. I tried my luck somewhere else in Malaysia, buta they can offer me just a few hundred diff in pay, workwise tak tau lagi, buatnya kena keje sampai pagi masak la. So I decided to stay, be loyal employee....

Pejam celik, pejam celik it's been 6 years I'm in SMHB, up to one point i just feel so stagnant,rasa mcm nak something fo a change, that time ade few ppl dah make a move to new opening...Middle East... At first i was just observe them....i know my parent wouldn't allow me to....Nak pegi Pulau Perhentian pon kena discuss as tho i'm still in high school.

The first time i voiced this out, ayah was like...WHY??

I said i need new challange...i wanna gain wht they gained...Ayah said "I can give you the money...U tell me how much u need?".....so understood la..no chance...wht to do??

But, when close people around me started to move....i just cant hold myself...why not me??

My parents is 2nd problem....i need to find me a chance 1st....the rest my sister said she will take care of that, yesss... i trust she can handle that. Since my late bro is no more around she has to play his role (take over)

So not knowing that how hard it would be...i tried with local company that has done attachement with my company before, i succeed. I was offered a post in Dubai.

Before i sign the offer letter I called ayah again...Just to get his formal approval. I don't feel relieve without doing that. He said ok....If u really decide then go ahead..,They finally approved me without any syarat.

So bermula la preparation let go my car, surrender my room and other necessary preparations. I can still recall masa the day i got my offer two of my close friend nangis...

Huhuhu sedih gak...I pon sedih gak...Really cant stop my tears...Ery and Cik Dal...

I remembered I was at stall nasi lemak kat Desa Pandan, Ery called..I told her somebody wanted to order Tupperware,tiba2 from the other end she said this while crying..."Lps ni dah takde dah org nak amik order utk aku....aku happy mu dpt offer tu...tp aku nak mu stay"...I pon burst into tears la jgk masa tu...i know how she felt, been knowing her for such a long time..she shared almost everything with me..we went through good and bad time together. Untill now...To Ery, where ever i go...U r still with me

After that, on the very same day, I promised Cik Dal to have dinner together kat Wong Solo ( her favourite Nasi Padang) After we placed an order she told me that she called Wa, she told Azua that she's happy for me that I managed to get that offer...but she's losing a friend...and suddenly she cried....Ohhh Cik Dal..not again..rasa mcm air mata murah pulak hari tu...Instead of Cik Dal, I feel the same way also. Eventhough byk benda i don't agree with Cik Dal but still we r best buddy... That what makes us complete... To Cik Dal...our friendship remains and never will end

Few days after that is Ramadhan, to cut short Raya... so enjoyed this moment very2 much since lps ni ntah bila boleh balik... I told my parent that they do not need to send me in KL, since the day i depart to Dubai is not far away from the day I went off from KB, My mother mcm x brp agree...i know deep inside she want to accompany me at least sampai KLIA, but ayah seems to be a decision master terpaksa she bear with it..

I still remember ayah pesan on the way to airport lps raya dulu

he said eventho dia tak hantar but he still pray from here that everything will be fine..He said he knows i can handle that and dont forget wherever you are...jgn tinggal sembahyang..

Ok ayah.....i try my best and for sure i should.

So on the flight to KL that day..everything seems so touching.. i remembered pesan ayah...how cik(my mother) cried when i hugged her and my little niece (dedek) wanted to follow me along. I dont care what ppl said...i just let my tears fall, sure diorang ckp jiwag sunggoh minah ni...nak balik raya pon nangis mcm tu skali...Eh kau peduli apa?? Aku bkn nak balik KL je...i still have long way to go la!! and i wont see them anymore after this Huhuhuhu...

Tp nak dijadikan cerita they came to KL jugak exactly on the same day I departed to Dubai...So they sent me to the airport as well. Ayah seems so cool...that's the way he is all the time. Cik pon...but whenever i passed Immigration gate, i saw her crying...See...that's why la i tak nak diorang hantar... i feel sad also..so lps naik sky train and sampai to the satelite terminal i gave cik a call to convice her that i'm ok...x worry too much...I make sure that my voice is strong enough to make her feel i'm ok eventho dalam hati mcm nak meraung......waaaaa!!!

The searching end.....

sighhh

Zaireen and i has put the end to our search, we finally found the house for us to stay..
Alhamdulillah...thanks god for making us finally find wht we were looking for..

this weekend there's nothing much intresting tho..
last friday we attended an MAQ annual dinner...i got to know other Malaysians in Qatar and registered myself to be a member of MAQ so tht they will include me for any get together or so
while saturday...we keep hunting for the hse

let me tell bout the hse

the total rent per month will be QR10,000.00 which include
1)all utilities bill including internet,
2)house cleaning for twice a week..
3)house has been equiped with everything including towel and..face towel also
4)as well as the washing machine, dishwasher machine, toaster, boiler and kitchen appliances
5)pot and pan
6)bowls and plates, cups and glasses
7)etc....

i would say it is complete for us for now i'm so lucky to have nice and helpful zaireen here..i owe her so much....
i promise to post the pic of our new hse when i move in later...hope everything is fine...
it just for me i need to
figure out about the transport to work
i thanked so much to Zaireen for being such a
i hope and really hope tht everything will be as smooth as i wish...and frenss pls pray for me as well beside urs...

thought of the day....

Hey....yesterday it's been a month I'm here in Doha....can't believe tho....time flying so fast..





people said if u feel that so, means u r really comfortable with your current situation. Well i should agree with that.Running my daily new routine with new challenge really make me exposed... designing highways and roads was what i did before in my previous company....but a lil bit different here when i need to familiarise and aquitance with new guidelines which are Qatar Highway Design Manual and ASSHTO.
(this pic of me and Sheryll, Highway Design Engineer from Manila Office)
she's the one who helped me a lot....sheryll just be patient with me.....hehehe

i would say this time is really new thing for me....roads in Malaysia we travel on the LHS of the road and the drivers are driving on the RHS of the car, but over here is the other way around...sigh..can u imagine how chaos it was to absorb these on my first few days....
but things go smooth as days gone by....
On the other hand i was so lucky to have Zaireen here when i arrived.... it's really hard for me to be alone here and to adapt with this culture and enviroments.... ( I was wondering how she survived when she was here 5 months ago.....hehehe and she must be very glad to read this....a salute to u girl....u have made it

untill now she's still my tour guide( eventho sometime i have to guide her....esp in the kitchen....hey u never know...i',m agood cook okay???)
mmmm.....loads of things to tell here.... but too tired to type...wht if i continue this weekend....
Neway enjoyyyyyyyyy